My arms are covered in scars from the hundreds of times I've cut myself, my torso as well... Tried suicide but it's way too slow but I got addicted to the drama, the attention, the color, the mess, ...the release, the endorphins... Goth was not solely an artistic interest in my case it was all consuming. It all started in my childhood when I was beaten repeatedly by my mother's second husband. An evil man, terrifying rage. I spent what should have been my formative and magical years crying, hiding, shaking in terror, and eventually traumatised.
lyrics
RED LOVE
Girl I'm gonna bleed for you
Girl you're gonna see me through
Take me to the other side
Take me where my heart can hide
Red love, red love
A prayer and a sacrifice
I can see the years gone by
We were one
I forgot how to be complete
Red love, red love
Sense, sense, sense
Love doesn't always make sense
Sense, sense, sense
Life doesn't always make sense
Now I'm only half a man
And you brought me the sorrow of a thousand lovers
Maybe you all think I'm blind
But I can see my hope fade by
Tonight I'm gonna be a star
Girl I'm gonna go too far!
Red love, red love
My veins are filled with poison pain
Love is pouring out of my arms
Red is all over my room
Red lakes with no name
I'm thinking it'll ease the pain
I'm feeling it leaving me and it feels good!
Sense, sense, sense
Love doesn't always make sense
Sense, sense, sense
Life doesn't always make sense
I'm not crazy but my love is red
I'm not crazy but my love is dead
I'm not crazy but my girl is gone
I'm not crazy but my girl is gone!
Red love, Girl I'm gonna bleed for you
Red love, Girl you're gonna see me through
Red love, Take me to the other side
Red love, Take me where my heart can hide
Red love!
credits
from TALAMASCA - The Lonesome Vampires Society,
released October 30, 1996
Words & Music by: Eloha
Produced by: Eloha
Engineered by: J.G. Montpetit
Recorded at Creason studio, Montreal 1996
Drum programming: Richie Brazz
Guitar, bass, voice by Eloha
Canadian singer and founder of Montreal heavy metal sensation INSANE (1985-'89), Montreal bloody gothic hard rock vampire
stalkers TALAMASCA (1993-'99), Toronto diamond hard rockers
THE SEVENATE (2005-'13), then went solo after a move to Paris with
ELOHA & THE VELVETTES (2013-'14) and finally founded diamond rock aliens of
ELEV8 (2017- present)......more